Sounds like you’re slacking and you know it. Been there. Over it, forgiven myself and pulled myself out. Did you see the books I recommended? 7 habits of highly effective people is a bible, it is. […] lemme drop some seriously old school quotation action on you my friend:

Ask, and it shall be given. Seek, and you shall find. Knock, and it shall be opened unto you.

It’s not ever gonna be easy, you might have to knock for 20 years, ask 1000 people and look until your eyes bleed. But you have to do it for yourself. […] let them know where you’re at and where you wanna be. Admit that you’re behind and you need help. ALL people want to help on some level, and you’d be amazed what asking can do. But if you ask, and then don’t follow through with your end of the bargain (i.e. math homework 4 nights a week and music practice 3 nights [or whatever dude you make up the rule]) you’re letting yourself down and you’re letting that person down too. Don’t do that.

A big part of growing up is the realisation that YOU HAVE TO KICK YOUR OWN ASS harder than your parents did. Because, ultimately, you’re the only one who can.

Keep in touch my friend, and keep fucking practicing. I’m serious.