it’s been important to form a routine because it lets me curate my habits.
Since I was young, I would get incredibly interested in something and build a
routine around it. Then once that routine breaks, it’s like I’ve forgotten it
ever existed. Even if that routine went on for months, I struggle to get back
to it. When a good one sticks, I want to protect that. There’s an inner
conflict of breaking my routines. The safety of the known. I wonder if fear of
the past failed routines makes me overvalue routines that are currently
sticking. But then there’s a dullness of the known.
